This Was a Good Day

My brothers wedding was really happy. Lots of drinking Red Stripe and moshing. Right before a big trip to Italy. Things were hard, but at the time it was really happy day in the midst of dark times. Important to remember these days right now.

Lisbeth Salander

I try really hard to find women to admire, and sometimes it's really hard. I get exposure to is pretty women, lady-like women, or slutty women-- where are the heroes, the villians, and the ones who are not afraid of anything? Steig Larsson is so point on with Lisbeth Salander in The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, and the other books in the Millenium trilogy. Take them down Lisbeth!

I identify with her motives. Maybe a little too much. Girl crush alert!

Crazy Love

So yesterday I watched this movie called Crazy Love, a 2007 documentary about Burt Pugach and his younger mistress Linda Riss. Pugach jumped off the deep end, and after Linda attemped to move on with another man (after finding out he was married, of course), Burt had beautiful Linda blinded by hiring some men to throw acid on her face. He goes to jail-- and of course, the beauty has no one to take care of her, although the couple eventually get back together. WTF right?

I think as someone who is no stranger to crazy love, it's important to walk away. But do you just get used to that level and are unable to identify with anything less? Let's hope not. But God, does this face look so much like my ex. And it's creepy!

Home is Wherever I'm With You

I am watching a cat lick a bathtub spout, and it's making me really depressed. Okay, a lot of things are. Where is home when you only have yourself anymore? I got an email today about "discount to fly home", and it was an email to fly home to India. Is it a sign? I wish I could just go home to India and find what I think I am supposed to there.

I am sick of talking to new people every day about jobs, about my depreciating livelihood, and going out to convince myself that I am fine where I am not. But I'm not content-- and no matter how much I wish I could control things, they are out of my control and I need to be patient.

I Like All the Girls

Just look at how beautiful these people are. Can you really blame me for my down-and-out thinking? Everyone in Chicago is pretty ugly, except for me and the people I know of course.

Robert Bruce Rocks and My Life Sucks

There hasn't been much to report on. Kansas City is still better than Chicago. No one will admit it, but they always end up pretending it's New York. Some kid stayed with me from SF, and kept blabbing on the phone that he was waiting for Kanye and Common to show up at my apartment. Guess what Jafar-- they aren't coming because everyone knows it's a coast game.

Darcel Luv